An Epiphany of Sorts

"Distance not only gives nostalgia, but perspective, and maybe objectivity" -Robert Morgan

Lately I have been thinking about home and my friends there and how the saying 'you don't really know what you have until it's gone' is so true. I have come to realize who my true friends are and who is not willing to make the attempt to keep in touch. It's not the easiest of realizations, but it is also welcome in some way. My best friend and I have been talking about the things we miss about being home and how we noticed certain friends have fallen off the face of the earth so to speak. 3000 miles seems to be a huge distance for some and for others it is more of a speed bump.

I have been able to take a step back and see who and what is important in my life and it seems a lot of people back home have too. People who I never thought I meant much to have pleasantly surprised me by keeping in touch and just saying hello because they haven't heard from me in a while. Unfortunately this also comes with the unpleasant feeling when someone you thought was close never seems to find the time unless you're penciled in to their calendars. This is by no means a one way street. Time management is not easy here, but I make it a point to keep in touch with the ones who mean the most to me. 

I do not want to rant all day, but I felt it was necessary to express my gratitude towards the people who I know truly care and who have kept in touch. It was always one of my goals to make sure I kept ties with everyone back home as much as possible. Hopefully some will see this and contact me again. To those who I have never had cause to doubt their intentions, thank you. You mean the world to me. To the friends I have made along the way, I hope we keep in touch no matter what country we end up in.

"Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down." Oprah Winfrey

Inspiration

"I don't dream at night. I dream all day; I dream for a living." -Steven Spielberg

For anyone who knows me, there can be no doubt that acting, film or theatre, is one of my biggest passions in life. I have been acting ever since I was 3 years old and have worked my hardest throughout college to get a degree in theatre. I have auditioned for anything and everything that I have been aware of.  I have even begun to write my own monologues.

Many people wonder why anyone in their right mind would want to do acting. I always get the response of "it's such a hard industry to break into" or "it's just so easy why would you bother?"  Those comments just fuel me more. It's one of the hardest industries out there and I enjoy the challenge. Anyone who has not been a part of a movie or a play has absolutely no idea just how much work goes into it. However, this is not why I am writing this.

I saw a picture my friend posted on facebook showing the notes from a theatrical play:

 (I do not own this picture)

That is why I act. 

I don't do it for the money or the fame. There is no better feeling for me and no better euphoria than being on stage or on film doing what I love to do. I may not be the best at it, but I will always give it everything I have. More importantly, the movies and plays that touch people and make a difference in peoples' lives make it all worth while. When I read that note I was extremely touched and proud to be a part of this industry. 

I don't act to seek money, fame, millions of fans, etc. I do it for the pure love of it. You get as much from it as you put in it. I want to make a difference in peoples' lives and I feel like this is best way for me to do that. 

"Acting deal with very delicate emotions. It is not putting up a mask. Everytime an actor acts he does not hide; he exposes himself."-Rodney Dangerfield